PLR Session......
I am a white
woman in my early twenties. I have a loving family. I am happy and ready to
explore. I am saying good bye to my family before leaving for my assignment, a
major incident in my life. I also say good bye to a young man whom I love but I
tell myself I would be with him when I come back and would have enough time.
It is
afternoon. I reach a mosque. It is prayer time. A huge gathering of men are performing
Namaaz. I am here on an assignment,
maybe a documentary or some research. There is a bearded man without moustache wearing
a turban looking at me. I am scared and hide under a shelf, waiting to run away
from this man. I ran away and got lost in a place of low dry mountains. I am
captured by some men; one amongst them is the guy I ran away from. I am in Afghanistan.
I am held in
captivity, my hands tied around my wrists. I am raped by men. I ask for my
death every minute. It is a strange feeling, I have the body but there is no
soul, or maybe my soul is numb. I feel I
am alive yet dead. I am physically, mentally and emotionally numb. I do not
even feel the physical pain, the cold, the hunger anymore.
I manage to
loosen up the ropes around my wrists. I snatch away the dagger from the bearded
man’s waist and stab myself in chest and my stomach. I died after few days due
to the wounds and infection, a lonely painful death. My soul just wanted to get
over with this life, a taxing life indeed. They left my body there. I want to
rest.
Lesson
learnt is that being fearless and independent is good but one needs to be
cautious too. I also learnt being ambitious and loving one’s career or choices
is good but family, love and relationships should also be given due priority.
Reorientation.....
I keep
myself and my career above love and family. One of my biggest fears in this
life has been of losing my mom or family members when I am not with them. Now I
know where it comes from. I also fear
dying a lonely death which has been a repeated pattern in my soul journey and I
needed to release this block. The connection to my present life is that even in
this life I have been keeping family and love on hold thinking I have enough
time to go back to them but the truth is family and love is to be our highest
priority, life needs to be balanced, one should draw a line for everything and
one should give time to all 3- 4 important life components........................I
can very well connect this life to my present life.
Thank you
Dr.Vandana for you invaluable help , guidance and support...I should go now,
have so much to do to get my family together and make my soulmate to take the
step...Good luck to all!!
